Now the Creative Journey Game. I had heard talk of this from some of my SoulCollage buddies in the past, but really didn't know what it was, exactly and didn't think I had the time to engage in something so BIG. Well, life, has a way of giving you what you need, right when you need it most (albeit in unexpected and sometimes awkward forms!). I received a message from Anne Marie that a new game was forming this spring, with visionary/creator/healer/master doll maker Barb Kobe. This was just after we came home from the hospital. I hummed and hawed about whether or not I really had the time, because my life was busier than ever with all of the changes that came with caring for Rosie. And yet...I needed something that would support me through all of this, something creative that involved community...particularly because I've been so isolated from others by our situation at home. (Aside from the amazing internet community!) So I talked it over with my husband Gordon and we both decided this was the mental health/heart/soul vitamin I needed.
My body, in it's infinite wisdom...decided on it's own that I needed to slow down and take care of myself and granted me that time I thought I didn't have through the gift of shingles. I use the word gift here with thoughtful intention. Because it mostly doesn't feel like a gift. But PAIN I have learned is not meaningless...it is a profound teacher...if we re-frame our relationship with it. That's not to say it isn't terrible too...it's both! I think one of the things pain has taught me over and over again is that life is full of duality-well, actually maybe multiplicity is a better word. Everything, every situation, every person, relationship, flower, mountain, snowflake, illness...has multiple layers and facets from which it/he/she can be viewed and understood.
Yesterday, despite a long day of driving me and Rosie to doctor's appointments and working (his "real" job), running errands and so forth, Gordon (my Superman) stopped and found me hardboard for my game board at the hardware store and gesso at the craft store so I can start to lay out my game. The doctor gave me the green light to be out and about-but I still need the nerve pain medicine, (I tried going without a dose yesterday, he said I could try and see how I felt...not good, I'm still in considerable pain with out the meds) so I still can't drive...but (small blessings) I can be with my family outside of my bedroom...and in my studio space to work when I have the energy! I still can't touch Rosie until Saturday, just to be sure I'm absolutely not contagious to her.
Life is hard, life is good, life is mysterious...I Thank God for all of it!