Sitting in stillness
My breath, my thoughts, emotions
The world rushes through
Anchored to heart beats
Time released, I find center
Surrender that too
Yesterday there was a whole lot of surrendering going on, my neurons were not particularly cooperative. Okay, that sounds unkind...it isn't as though they have choice in any of this. MS is a disease of complete randomness, and my body is doing the best it can with the strange situation it is forced to cope with day in and day out. Yesterday began with birthday hugs, a wonderful coaching session with a client I adore (become friend-I LOVE when that happens) and then a heart to heart talk on the phone with a blogging friend who has also become dear. I made it to the end of both conversations with my NORMAL, non-globally accented voice...got up to bathe and next thing I knew, my legs went rag doll and I was on the floor. Which also meant not just an accent but dysarthria. I needed assistance in and out of the tub and rested the rest of the afternoon. I was able to slowly walk down the steps by dinner time with Belin's assistance and we celebrated with gifts and a cake and laughter. Then it was piggyback up to bed (thank God my husband is strong and I am light). I don't know what today will bring. I pray for my brain and my muscles to communicate with more ease than yesterday, (it is a PT day after all) but it's okay either way. It is all just practice in the art of surrender and opening my heart/mind to peace within my own center; remembering the gifts of stillness, breath, heartbeats and time released.
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My dear LAura
ReplyDeleteI so pray too that you feel better today and as the day goes on even better, as good as it gets
You are such an inspiration and sweet person
Lots of love from across the Ocean
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May you experience rivers of kindness today, Laura, gentleness too. This came across my email this morn, loved it, thought of you. xo
ReplyDelete"In the dew of little things, the heart finds its morning and is refreshed."
Kahlil Gibran
The Prophet
Hi my friend Laura,
ReplyDeleteI am not sure what to say but I am glad to hear that, with the help of Belin's assistance, you ended the day with laughter (and CAKE, GIFT).
Please have a wonderful day.
Yoshi.
i hope that today is a better day...this verse so resonates...the surrendering...
ReplyDeleteHope you're feeling so much better now Laura.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is yours, yesterday and today. Yours is a big breath. I will hold a space for you today, and each day, hoping all is better.
ReplyDeleteThe non-word at the bottom. Was "loggedop" it seems like a wonderful word, for things unspoken. xoxoxoxo
I have never thought about surrendering my heartbeat, my center, too, but I guess that is the ultimate surrender in death.
ReplyDeleteThank you once again Wise One for this humble teaching. And Happy Belated Birthday Belin.
Hope you are finding the wisdom, grace and strength to guide you to a more comfortable place.
ReplyDeleteRandomness - you have to always expect the unexpected ... but I wish you didn't have to. I'm thrilled that the beginning of the day was so wonderful with your friends, and that you enjoyed Belin's birthday celebration. Under other circumstances, a piggyback ride could be a lot of fun. I, too, pray for days of more ease and muscle control for you, my friend.
ReplyDelete"MS is a disease of complete randomness". I like that characterization of MS.
ReplyDeleteNow I'm off to check out that Buddha Chick class....!
trrish
I appreciated your visit and hope you will find renewed strength.
ReplyDeleteLaura, your optimism and strength are an inspiration to us all........
ReplyDeleteLaura
ReplyDeleteI can relate to you about the falling and crazy nerves. I too have MS.
Beautiful pictures!
ReplyDeleteThe photographs look like paintings constructed with brushstrokes in every shade of blue. Poetry in pictures.
ReplyDeleteMay each day be a new beginning ~
Solid, smile-causing poem. :) See?
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