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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Feeling Fine



Here's my Watery Wednesday post, some pretty wild weeds growing near a boggy water's edge right where I used to walk every day last summer when I was so strong. (about 4 miles from my house) I feel this way so often now, like I'm living on the edge of land that isn't land, isn't always "trust-able". I never know for sure when I put my feet down, if I'll be supported, or if I will just slip down into the soft mud of my MS altered life. My gait is steady most days now, but then suddenly it won't be. I'll lose my balance, or the message to lift my foot and put it down again to take a step won't quite make it all the way down my leg and it is a huge conscious effort to make it happen. Or my foot won't lift at all and I have to sort of slide it along in a shuffle. Or I'm just too darn tired to get up and walk in the first place! And at the same time I appreciate the intricate wild beauty of this vessel, this body that thank God, is still mostly able to walk step by step across my life's seeming boggy-ness. There is fear, there is sadness, frustration and so much gratitude for all that goes right. So often people ask me "How are you feeling?" Usually I say "Fine, slower, but so much better than I was." And I am fine, mostly. I really am. But I'm different. It's a different quality of fine than a year ago when I was starting to emerge from MS vertigo fog, a different quality of fine than early last summer when I really felt strong and sure in my body. I don't know if I'll ever feel that way again...I just don't know. So like these lovely weeds, on the water's edge I am finding a way to survive and thrive in this new "fine" state of being.




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I want to mention again in terms of gratitude, how thankful we are for all the generous donations to the MS Journey of Hope Walk just 2 weeks away! So far we have raised $1,874.00

Wow!!!!!

OMG...two more incredibly generous donations just came in!!!!

$1,999.00

I think there's a good chance we will hit our $2000 intention in the next two weeks and if we don't well, this is an amazing contribution from a small band of good hearted souls!

thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!


34 comments:

  1. Lovely photos and great reflection!
    Wish you a nice evening:-)

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  2. Interesting post, Laura. Thank you for sharing your feelings about your uncertainties. I wish you all the best in regaining your strength.

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  3. as what EG said, i wish you all the best.

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  4. I too would love to thank you for sharing with us. Hope you'll have more good days ahead. And that somehow you'll take more walks.

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  5. I too would love to thank you for sharing with us. Hope you'll have more good days ahead. And that somehow you'll take more walks.

    www.ewok1993.wordpress.com

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  6. Enjoy the here and now:) Wonderful pictures of the water and what you call weeds.

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  7. wonderful metaphor for you feelings concerning your health. I think you are so brave and courageous to share it with us. sending you hugs on this very watery wed here in Colorado!

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  8. so tender and powerful , you reflections.

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  9. thank you everyone for your heart felt (believe me, MY heart is feeling them) comments today. I have tears now....but I'm FINE, really...tears are so cleansing and healing, as is all the love I feel coming through your words.

    blessings upon you all:
    May you feel safe.
    May you feel happy.
    May you feel strong.
    May you live with ease.

    gentle steps,
    Laura

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  10. Isn't it amazing that in those moments when you are not feeling quite so strong, you are able to pass on strength through your beautiful words and photos! I am ever grateful for you and your beautiful giving spirit.

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  11. Lovely captures of the water and wild weeds. I wish you all the best.

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  12. Your watery weeds are beautiful. I've just been browsing through your blog & am so impressed with your photographs and your overall approach to handling the obstacles of life. All the best.

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  13. You are so steadfast in your aspirations. I, too find solace in this kind of environment. Keep it going!

    What a lovely post!

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  14. The photos are beautiful, Laura. As is your candor in sharing your journey. Not a journey you ever anticipated, but one that you are dealing with with grace.

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  15. By sharing the intimacies of your disease I hope and pray that you are helped at least HALF as much as your Peeps are aided in their (our) dealings with "life on life's terms"

    You must be a sweet girl...you write sweet things on other Peeps' blogs! My eye turned out fine, so many slight changes in sight. Thank you!

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  16. To accept what we can not change and be "fine" with that. That is the road to inner peace.
    Shalom and blessed be

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  17. Hello Laura,
    Thank you for this watery post, in more ways than one. :)

    Blessings,
    Stacy

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  18. Lovely water photos! Have a nice day! :)

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  19. Beautiful post, and it gave me a reminder of how lucky I am. My "frozen shoulder" hurts, but, it will go away some day. I´m frustrated it takes so long time to heal, but I know I´m lucky to be healthy in all other ways .... my mother is suffering of serious lung cancer, so I do a lot of thinking these days ....

    Thank you for sharing your feelings, I wish you all the best!

    Irene

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  20. Lovely photos and great reflection!
    Thanks for visiting my blog!

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  21. Expression of feelings is very relaxing and relieving. Thanks for sharing your feelings to us. Hope all is well.

    The photos are wonderful. Great capture, the reflection is beautiful.

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  22. Love those fragile plants falling softly over the still water!
    And your words softly touch our hearts! Beautiful!
    Namaste!

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  23. you are an inspiration with your gracious and grateful look on life... prayers and lots of love to you!

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  24. Interesting how as time goes on, we might redefine "fine" or many other perspectives we have. It seems a way of growing, of gaining and applying the wisdom life teaches us along the way. Lovely thoughts, thanks for sharing.

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  25. you have put into words how your body feels and now I can understand what my very good friend goes through with her MS. She may not be as good with words as you are .... what a blessing it is to have community over such distances and meet people and their words that I might never have known before. Thank you for sharing - and best wishes with your Journey of Hope Walk - 2 weeks away - and every single day, it would seem.

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  26. aloha,

    how eloquent and descriptive with the views of the water, it is an eye opener...thank you for sharing this moment and seeing water in a different perspective.

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  27. Beautiful post and photos, I love nature photos. Your wetland area looks very pretty. Thanks for stopping by my blog.

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  28. Dear Laura, may you feel strong in all that you are in this moment and all that you are able to do. I have gained so much from your friendship and thank you for all that you share. Your courage shines through ~

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  29. Sometimes we find our strengths where we were not looking before. What once looked like nothing becomes a force that even we did not know we had in us.
    Your water pictures are beautiful. Spring is such a hopeful time.

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  30. Thank you everyone for your kind, thoughtful comments and generous well wishes.

    gentle steps,
    Laura

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  31. I too would love to tahnk for sharing all the photos with us, dear Laura.

    U´re the most sensitive person that I have met in all my life as blogger.

    And I thank to God for it

    God bless u.
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  32. Congrats on the marking of donation..Your photos show even weeds can be very beautiful, and I like how artistic these pictures look.

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  33. I have heard it say eyes are the windows to the soul. I feel photos are like that too Laura, and I also feel you have a beautiful soul.

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