I was able to take a brief walk a few feet from the back of the house to capture these photos after Gord and I returned from getting my flu shot this morning.
yeah, well a few hours later this is what the world looks like for me when I sit or stand.
My immune system and neurons are not happy with the flu vaccine apparently.
Now the myoclonus that was so annoying in my legs has started up in my head!!!! I have taken to calling myself Momma Exorcist Bobble Head Barbie since this afternoon. It is the weirdest symptom I've had yet....my head just thrashes at amazing speed from side to side (it will truly be incredible if I don't end up giving myself whiplash!) and if I dare to try and stand, my legs get in on the party, then my torso and arms...I must be quite a site to see.
It's tylenol, bedrest and assistance to get to and from the bathroom for me for the next couple of days until my body adjusts to the vaccine...or whatever it is that is supposed to happen. I don't know. I had to have the flu shot because my immune system is compromised (from the Tysabri) and having the actual fullblown flu could be worse than this so I've been told...this is annoying enough! Yikes, can't even imagine having the flu and what that would do to my poor body. My poor sweet body, doing the best she can to deal with all of this. As long as I have my head relatively flat against a pillow the shaking ceases...so I should be able to sleep ok...in fact I wouldn't be able to type if my head were in constant motion at that speed. So yay for pillows and husbands and doctors and daughters who all support me in their own ways!
And my thoughts return to the photos and all the tiny objects caught in the web...flowers, leaves, pine needles, water droplets...and I consider the tangle of reactions that became caught up in the anxiety I felt when this first started this afternoon...it was scary, I had tears in my eyes, I was having so much trouble speaking clearly (dysarthria-slurred speech, nasal, stuttering, slow)...Gordon had to call the doctor...and once she said yes it was from the vaccine, (which of course we realized) but that I shouldn't worry, this isn't unusual for someone with MS, it would only last a few days...the fear eased. I'm still uncomfortable...but I can joke about it now...it will pass. Would you believe my biggest fear was having to sit in the ER with my head doing it's "this woman is possessed call an exorcist" thing in the waiting room for 3 hours before they could find an empty gurney...how uncomfortable I would be unable to lay down and all the stares I'd draw from strangers. Stares from strangers? What a silly thing to be frightened about...but that was number two on my list! I am so incredibly grateful that I did NOT have to go to the damned ER!
In time, the wind will carry away the debris from the spider's web, the droplets of water will evaporate like my tears...the web will remain for a while and new things/thoughts will become caught...for a while...and then eventually the web itself will become free from the flower stems that are supporting it...and God willing, I too will be free from this particular head thrashing symptom.
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