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Saturday, September 25, 2010

Almostnotyet

"Almostnotyet" is the heart-tug I'm feeling as Gordon pushes me along the road in my "chariot". A resistance of green, red, gold, still green, mottled leaves sighing "almostnotyet".

Late summer goldenrod, singing to the light, tips just barely beginning to brown.

Branches arch above, rustling their radiant leaves, while purple blossoms below seem to plead; "alomostnotyet".
Autumn's leaves inspire so much joy...but all too soon the leaves will "take leave", surrendering to fate, wind, rain... Still, today we witness a glorious canopy fluttering in the afternoon breeze...oh, "almostnotyet" revealing empty spaces when trees like dark bones will stand sentry against winter's biting, cold sky. How easily the mind sweeps away the present moment rolling like my wheelchair downhill if I forget to put on the brakes, forget that "almostnotyet" is not a word, but a heart-tug for a reality that right now, does not exist.

There is only this breath. Only this leaf, scarlet tipped, veined and curling, resting in this moment on the pavement here beside my tires and toes...I tell myself.

And if with my next exhalation I can sweep away my fears about the "almostnotyet's" of MS changing my body too....if just for this one release of breath I can relax into the present moment, I believe it will be an entry into my own sukkah,
I can fulfill the mitzvah of sitting in a fragile house (my own body here in my wheelchair) and feel the blessing of z'man simchateinu, the season of our joy.

Then again, I can inhale and allow this sacred moment to enter me.

Baruch Ata Ad-noi El-heinu Melech HaOlam Asher Kidishanu B'Mitzvosav V'Tzivanu Leishev baSukkah." Blessed are you Hashem our G-d, King of the Worlds, who has sanctified us with Your commandments and commanded us to sit in a Sukkah.

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33 comments:

  1. You do shine, Laura, you really do. "almostnotyet" should definitely be a word, for it captures that feeling precisely. Love and big hugs to you, always.

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  2. A stunningly beautiful collection of Autumn scenes! Especially loved the leaf in macro!

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  3. This is so very lovely and full of truth. There is only this breath. And the future is not yet... whatever it will be is in His hands, and they are Love.

    Thanks for sharing this beauty with us.

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  4. Oh wow...how beautiful. Almostnotyet...a poetry of images and words.

    Thank you for this gift today.

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  5. I'm glad you are getting out to take in the joy of the season, Laura! It really is a wonderful time of year.

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  6. Beautiful sentiments. Great photos.

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  7. I like this "almostnotyet" word that signifies transition/change in nature and how you use that word in your life to symbolize the changes occurring in your life as well. this is a post i will never forget. this is a word i will never forget. i like how you've unified the word to become one and how it has suddenly become a word that can be used where others fail... lovely, brilliant....as are you.... ((love)) Rebecca

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  8. "Almostnotyet" is one of your most beautiful posts ever, Laura. Thank you for sharing it.

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  9. What a beautiful and inspiring post. Thank you! I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend :)

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  10. Trees decked in Autumn leaves lift my spirits. A beautiful reminder to inhale and live in this sacred moment. Thanks Laura. You are an inspiration.

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  11. Oh, those autumn colors. New England this time of year sure does shine. That rake brought back some memories. I could hear the sound of it scratching the earth and feel again the callouses forming on my young hands. Good times....

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  12. Laura, I loved journeying with you in this way. You painted a beautiful picture for us of your experience. I "saw" the sights with you and felt myself return to my breath and "be here now" with you. The colors are just beginning to turn here too. We live on water so they actually start a little later than inland. I am savoring every turn of hue...

    I've a busy day at the computer scheduled, opening the Buddha Chick classroom, and getting our first Lesson ready to go. So this was the perfect start to my day to remind to be one with what is here...."Just this." Thank you!

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  13. This was so wonderful to wake up to this morning. It lifted my spirits high. Thank you for this almostnotyet post!

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  14. What a lovely, inspiring post! Fall leaves always inspire me as well, I just wish they lasted longer!

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  15. What a wonderful "word" and even more wonderful reflection on its meaning. You've described fall perfectly, and the way I'm feeling these days in a way I wish I'd thought to do. Beautiful writing. Beautiful pictures.

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  16. So lovely to see the leaves in the process of changing. No obvious signs of fall here in the desert, it's still very hot.

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  17. The words you speak are a vision of the beauty of strenght within.

    peace

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  18. I like the metaphor of the chariot - the term 'wheelchair' by itself sounds very confining.

    'Chariot' indicates speed, pulled by Pegasus to get to our destination with speed and grace. (Or as I describe it, my 'means of ambulation' :>)

    You are seeing the effects of Fall earlier up there in NH. Only slight changes in Southern CT, but the fleeting and colorful foliage is not much longer for us, just later...

    No matter how fleeting, the beauty is to behold!

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  19. Yom Tov, my dear friend. Thank you for sharing such gorgeous photos and such beautiful words. You always touch my heart in a way that very few can.

    And in your chariot with your knight by your side, may you continue to fight the good fight, sweet one.

    Love always,
    Deb

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  20. Very beautiful photos in your post! :)

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  21. Great photos and words, Laura! It is nice seeing the colors of Autumn again. We are on our second month of Spring and the days are getting warmer.

    Hugs to you from down under.

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  22. Beautiful images for my eyes this early morning.
    Your words are an inspiration to this One Woman.
    Sending you blessings, love and healing wishes.

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  23. you have shared so much beauty.
    yes we are fragile, so fragile and so strong too.

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  24. Laura, I have "carried" this post with me since I first read it. You have captured the essence of the colors and feel of the season, as well as how my life feels right now. I was having a serious talk with myself, and the word "almostnotyet" came to me, as in all things happen in good time. Smile.

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  25. I waited to catch up here so I could truly read with all my heart.

    and this is brilliant , truly.
    I feel such mixed emotions in the fall.

    and you are so right. it is being present to the transition , the almostnotyet that can be enough.

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  26. Beautiful images and a great post.

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  27. Delightful captures and a wonderful post as always, Laura. I do love the macro leaves! Hope you've had a good weekend!

    Sylvia

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  28. A lovely series of Autumn photos, you've captured everything I love about this time of year. Thank you for sharing.

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