Thank you everyone for your loving comments this week. Ellie, our dog is home now and resting well, in between whining (and who can blame her, it hurts!) This is her second time going through the same surgery (opposite knee...at least she won't have to go through it again, no more knees!!!) Belin will be coming home late Friday evening from Paris and Rosie's braces are fun and functional (and a little uncomfortable)...she went for turquoise and purple--very sparkly!
My voice is still a bit wonky and difficult to understand with sporadic bouts of dysarthria (sometimes it lasts all day..other times for a few hours) but in the grand scheme of "things that can go wrong"... it is annoying to not be understood, but not terrible, not really and it is something that has been coming and going for nearly two years--separate from my super unusual form of globe trotting foreign accent syndrome...it has just been a little more intense than usual this week. (I am hoping it clears soon...but it is what it is.) The burning and electric shocks of paresthesia in my right foot felt better for a few hours after acupuncture on Tuesday, but it is back with a vengeance, creeping up and involving my knee and back of my thigh now too....what can you do? Ms is a weird disease, that's all there is to it! Now I'm sounding whiny and self absorbed, sorry. I find the best thing to do when it gets really uncomfortable (the paresthesia), is to dive into it so that it becomes a point of focus for meditation. This becomes surprisingly soothing as I explore the sensations with curiosity...fear and judgment (YIKES, I DON'T LIKE THIS, IT IS PAINFUL)... soften and take a back seat so that the sensations become less troublesome...my perspective shifts, and I relax. This doesn't make the parasthesia go away, but allows me to be with it in a more calm and equanimous way. And well, sometimes whining a little helps too...but just a little.
The photos above are from last Friday afternoon, when Rosie took me for a "glide" around the neighborhood in my wheelchair...such a beautiful day!!! I think being out in nature helped us to be more present and miss Belin a little less, as that was the day she left. We are so looking forward to when she finally wakes up Saturday and she tells us ALL ABOUT IT!!!!
Now to step outside of absorption with my family and myself for a moment...my little earth angel friend Jack is home receiving hospice-pain management care at this time. In the last post from his Mommy this morning she shared his bedtime prayer which speaks so much of the courage, faith, love and pure joy for life of this beautiful child:
"Dear God. Thank you for making me so very happy and healthy. God bless Mommy, Mama, and Kate. And please bless Shelby, Tut, and, annnnnd, allllllll my Moo Moos. And God? Please bless everyone I love in the world. Amen."
Please say some extra prayers for Jack and his family over at CaringBridge.