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Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Momentarily Lost and Found

enshrouded by clouds
 sitting in the silver mist
patience
  patience

 pa......
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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ayekha
ayekha, ayekha, ayekha
i call out to myself...
where are you?
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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sitting in meditation
lost in thought
am i lost i wonder?
in anger-fear-sorrow-frustration
ayekha?!?
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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hineni
here…
here i am
i feel a tingling through my skin
as my body remembers what my mind forgets
hineni
here i am
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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tears roll down my cheeks
onto my right arm
then the left
here i am
here i am, here i am, here i am
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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i call out to myself
not lost
fully present to the chill up my spine
to the breath that could be deeper
the breath that simply is
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing
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 i call out once again as the thoughts spin
raw emotions
tug my heart
ayekha
ayekha, ayekha, ayekha
where are you? 
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breathing out
breathing in
breathing out 
breathing in
breathing out
breathing in
breathing out
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 exhale-return
hineni
here
here i am 
sitting in the silver mist
of patience with
myself



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Before I join Belin at the hospital in the afternoons, there is a lot of processing happening for me as I meditate, practice yoga, rest and write each day in our room. For her too- we are working through a lot of mother-daughter communication challenges in our studio apartment/hotel room in addition to the pt and ot that continue for two more hours each evening. All of this is hard work and healing for us both. It feels perfectly aligned with preparations for Yomim Noraim, these days of awe that are rapidly approaching in the Jewish calendar. Over the years, I've noticed that even when I am not fully paying attention to the holiday cycles because so many other things are happening in my life, my body/mind/heart/spirit "just know"; inner and outer seasons are in sync.

33 comments:

  1. Beautiful. Thank you for bringing us with you on your journey. Your photographs, your words - run deep.

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  2. So true Laura, our inner beings remember everything. Blessings on you both.

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  3. A beautiful poem written from truth and pain. Thank you, Laura.

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  4. Such beauty, wisdom and pain, dear Laura. I'm so sorry to read of your latest challenges. Know that you and your family are always in my heart, thoughts and prayers.
    xo

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  5. Thrilling to be part of your meditation...

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  6. Stunning! Love photos, love the poem and send my love to poet:)

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  7. If my mother and I had had to stay in a small studio together when I was a teenager I don't know how we would have managed it. I so admire the relationship you have with your daughters!

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  8. Dear One
    Thank you for allowing me
    to be a part of your journey
    I do not even know how I found you.
    Over the miles
    through a computer
    that 7 years ago I knew nothing about.
    Love and prayers continue for you and loved ones...

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  9. Oh Laura, I am finally catching up on all that has been going on in your life and I am so sorry that I have been out of touch! I did not know that Belin has been going through so much pain over the past couple of years! I am very glad that she is now getting the help that she needs in order to heal, but still, living with chronic pain is such a difficult thing.

    I will email you soon, but please know that I will be holding you and your family very close in my thoughts and prayers.

    With so much love and big healing hugs,
    Deb

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  10. One of the most blessed meditation
    prayers I have read.
    Thank you.

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  11. Ufff!! Glad you did it in the end.
    Lovely photos... amzing description.

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  12. Oh, I love this. I've been studying the Hebrew Aleph Beit and was so excited when I recognized hineni. What a beautiful way to meditate, to face the challenges you seem to be facing. Blessings.

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  13. Thank You. I needed that little breather in the worst way. Nice immersive write.

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  14. breathing in, breathing out - there was a tension to this one that was a bit scary .... until the end when you found yourself which left me feeling relieved and able to breath out again.

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  15. I love the photos and your poem thank you so much for sharing

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  16. meditation...is medicine :) be well!

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  17. So much beauty, but also pain. Love the poem and the shots ... Blessings on you both.

    Greetings Irene

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  18. that was wonderful to read, I noticed my breathing and need to notice it more. What a gift this time is with your daughter, if challenging. Lois

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  19. How can it be that Rosh Hashanah is less than a month away? Summer is quickly coming to an end!

    I opr all is well with your daughter.

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  20. I deeply honor your ability to "just know" ...as you so clearly 'Shine the Divine'...poem, photos, all harbingers of so much 'be well...be very well'.

    hugs
    d

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  21. A wonderful meditative piece... thanks, I needed that!

    ~laurie

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  22. Thank you for sharing
    This Wonderful Pictures
    Good creations

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  23. Dear Laura,

    Everytime I visit your blog, and read your poetry or prose, I feel filled up with a Spirit that can only come from something so much more than what I know. You are so blessed, and I am so sorry that you are in pain...and your daughter.

    Your beauty and wisdom shines forth in every word.

    Bless you and thank you, Laura. You charge up my tattered soul.

    Lady Nyo

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  24. yes breathe my sweet friend because how long can one hold their breath? Love your words!

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  25. this makes for a beautiful meditation...a blessing even in the reading...

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  26. sitting in the silver mist of patience with myself... how beautifully penned... precious moments.. need to breathe deeper myself.. thanks

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  27. sending you peacefulness and light and thanking you for sharing your wisdom, your honesty and allowing us into your heart.
    Beautiful photos!! Seems like you came through Irene ok as we did, too. VERY grateful for that!
    sending love and light..

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  28. What a beautiful meditation prayer! It's like that sometimes for me, too. Where am I? I sit and breathe, open my heart and my trust. You are one of the most aware individuals I've ever encountered, so I'm not surprised that your self intuitively knows that cycles and celebrations. Blessings on you, my sweet friend.

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  29. I've been doing breathing exercises while I've been in physical therapy -- and the breathing in, breathing out is the poem I'm reciting every day. Well done.

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  30. You breathing your way, like a seed waiting...absorbing the rain but wanting sunlight. I am reminded of a Catholic Advent hymn- My soul in stillness waits...

    Thinking of you and your daughter.

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  31. The second to the last pic felt rounded of the nice collection of shots for the day. It must be so freeing to be a top of a hill.

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