Perhaps it is the result of two more days of Solumedrol, perhaps it is the relief of being home, safe, breathing, perhaps it is gratitude for the generosity and lovingkindness that has been expressed toward me over and over again from loved ones who know me well and many, many people I've never even met except online...maybe it is all of this as well as yirah, awe toward the Holy One Who Breathes the whole world into Being and has blessed me so deeply with a beautiful life? But these photos of rain weeping down the windows of my house mirror the tears that are so near the surface of my heart and brim over my eyes at the smallest provocation today.
I am feeling very tired and need to rest my body. It has been through a great deal since June. I’m happy to say that things have worked out and we (my husband and girls) will be able to travel up north to the mountains for a week with ten of our family members starting Sunday. We weren’t sure if we would be able to go with, but we will and my weepy eyes and overfull heart are thrilled to be able to spend time with my loved ones and the mountains that bring me so much joy. No hiking for me, of course, but there are plenty of beautiful lookouts to stop at so I can take photos while sitting in the car. And to breathe the cool mountain air…ahhh. Yes, this is just what I need and my family too.
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This little retreat is good news.
ReplyDeleteWishing you feel good time, rest time, and family fun time.
You remain in my thoughts and prayers.
still getting caught up laura, i am sooooo happy to hear that you are home.
ReplyDeletehome is where the love is, rest and be well. i always think of you hope that you are comfortable. i know you are loved!!!
I am so happy to read that you will be getting some beautiful time with your family. I will be thinking of you. ((soul hugs)) k
ReplyDeleteThese are such moving photos, Laura. I'm so glad that you can go on vacation with your family. Love, Toni
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you'll be able to breathe the peace of the mountains. I love the raindrops.
ReplyDeleteThrilled that you are home and even more so that you get to feel Mother Nature's loving embrace in the mountains with those you love. Be at peace, breathe in the life force all around and know we all keep you in our hearts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLaura ... Laura ... Laura ... you have become part of my heart. So often I think of you and how your life inspires me. Each thought is also a moment for prayer for you, to give you strength, healing and support. Yet, I often find that you are providing those same things to me, perhaps unbeknownst to you, yet I feel that you do know with your inner knowing.
ReplyDeleteI send ahead of you an abundance of prayer for happiness, ease and light on your gathering. May the cool mountain air fill your lungs with health and joy. May the presence of loved ones bring you laughter and light (as I know you'll bring the same to them!). May your overfull heart continue to spill over with love and blessing as you continue to touch so many with your abundance. <3
I am so glad you are home Laura. Some time in the mountains will be wonderful for body and soul. May you find it as refreshing as the raindrops in your photos.
ReplyDeleteI see you like to share the moments with us, I am glad you do - as then I can get to know you. You share your surroundings as well? Weeping Windows is greatly done. I have not been able to walk in a year but are better now (have paints so you can't imagine) But my photography (camera) is showing my emotionels and thoughts. You will be able to see it in my photos and stories. Thanks again Laura - and thanks for being you!!
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to seeing your mountain photos in due course! Enjoy yourself and be well.
ReplyDeleteMay your tearfulness soon be turned into abundant joy and freshness of full health Laura.
ReplyDeletelife viewed through teardrops can sometimes make the big picture blurry, but the droplets often magnify some small detail as worthy of a deeper view
ReplyDeletethat is what you do Laura
invite us to look deeper
for the things which stand out amid all the muck
because a spot of weeping has shed light on it
may your holiday in the hills be a breath of fresh air
So sorry to hear the problems you've had of late. I wish you well on your vacation to the mountains. Rest and enjoy!
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful time with your family, which I am sure you will.
ReplyDeleteJudy
What wonderful news, Laura! I'm so happy to hear that not only are you home, but able to travel. Time spent with your family will be a treasure for all. Prayers for safety and healing are sent your way.
ReplyDeleteLaura, you are such an inspiration to everyone. Catching up with your posts, been off from blogging for almost two months.
ReplyDeleteRest and Relax! Enjoy your outing with your family!
Those are beautiful photos, despite their mood. Enjoy your time with the family, that's what life is about!
ReplyDeleteThe photos capture the spirit of what you are saying so well. They are an invitation to be at peace. Rest well!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are well enough to attend your family gathering and spend some time in the mountains. May each day bring enough of every good thing!
ReplyDeleteWonderful shots. It always feels great to be home.
ReplyDeleteWe find reflections of our being everywhere in nature.
ReplyDeleteTears can be beautiful too, when we know what they are.
Hope things are fine with you.
cleansing tears.....
ReplyDeleteAloha from Waikiki;
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Beautiful "tears" on the window! Enjoy the mountain scenery:)
ReplyDeleteLovely raindrops.
ReplyDeleteWish you all the best :)
I am so grateful to know that you are out of the hospital and that you will be able to enjoy some very precious away time with your family. I feel a bit weepy with gratitude just thinking about it. And, I feel weepy just contemplating all that you have been through. I have such a strong desire to be able to just gently put my arms around you, to cradle your fragile body and spirit, to share some renewal with you. It makes me so sad to think of how ragged you must feel. But this will be good, this get-away with your family. This will be a time of renewal and love and sharing the beautiful, small details of life. You deserve this for so many different reasons and my own heart sings out with joy in knowing that you will be able to go.
ReplyDeleteNothing wrong with sitting in the car with your camera and a small notebook and a yummy treat to snack on as you take in the beautiful sights, smells and sounds of the mountains. Roll down the windows and relax in your little cocoon while taking in the details that the hikers will miss. It really is all in the details, anyway. Transfer all of that stale hospital air for some fresh mountain air. Fill your lungs and fill your soul, my sweet friend.
I will think about you and send you as much love as I can muster. Have a wonderful time:)
So much love and healing hugs,
Deb
I so admire your capacity to feel a broad range of deep emotions at the same time and express them so beautifully, including visually, Laura. I wish you a wonderful week with your loved ones. Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful time Laura and take care~*
ReplyDeleteYour words are so beautiful, Laura! Your gratitude and deep appreciation for life...so tangible! I know the healing that mountains offer so freely and am delighted to know you will soon be able to imbibe their power. Wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteYour words are so beautiful, Laura! Your gratitude and deep appreciation for life...so tangible! I know the healing that mountains offer so freely and am delighted to know you will soon be able to imbibe their power. Wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteLaura, you are very brave and full of positive energy person.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy to hear that you are at home and I'm sure you'll feel better after breathing beatiful mountains fresh air.
Greetings and I wish all the best to you Laura and your family
I might be out of line here, but it seems to me that you are relying to others to be happy. And when you are not you feel guilty and makes things worse. But, in fact, YOU are the only one that can make you happy. Not gods, not family not others. And certainly not the feeling of guilt when you are not grateful. Skip the grateful and thankful stuff and and just do your best. If you need to cry, do it without feeling bad about it. It is your right to do that. :)
ReplyDeleteBut I love your shots of the window.
So pleased you are home Laura. And now you have your tip to the mountains to look forward to. Mountain air is definately therapeutic. Have a wonderful time.
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon, and hope you get some nice scenery shots, the mountain air will surely be welcome for you, nice shots of the raindrops.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear your are home and you got to spend time with your family, that can be very therapeutic.
ReplyDeleteThese are beautiful shots!
Like the second one a little bit more. Hope you will be fine soon.Have a nice week.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy this special time.
ReplyDeletePrayers and love
sent your way.
I'm thrilled that you'll be able to make the trip. you express your emotions so beautifully, thanks for sharing them Laura. wishing you a wonderful holiday in the mountains! take good care, and BREATHE!
ReplyDeleteOh, how wonderful that you will be able to get away to the mountains! I am very happy that you will be able to share time with your extended family :o)
ReplyDeletehave a nice time :)
ReplyDeleteI am so happy that you can go on your trip and share precious time with loved ones. It sounds as though you have been through more than enough challenges and I send light to you. wishing you a wonderful time away.
ReplyDeleteI hope your time in the mountains with your loved ones will bring much peace to your heart.
ReplyDeleteHi - good to hear that you are going to be able to go to the mountains.
ReplyDeleteThe window shots are great - as I have said on another blog, I think I can feel some B/W coming on.
Thanks for being another push in that direction.
Stewart M - Australia
I love your attitude of contentment. It is not easy to watch everyone else has the run of the hill, but one can find comfort and joy right underneath their feet.
ReplyDeleteso very glad you're able to do this... hoping your time there will be filled with peace, love, and joy.
ReplyDeleteSo very glad that you can get to the mountains Laura, hope you have a good relax with your loved ones x
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