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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Entering Blog Silence

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I hear the roar of wind, singing with a chorus of many voices through the trees. Leaves from autumn, survivors of winter are lifted, scattering with tiny faerie snowflakes just outside the rattling windows of this old house of ours.  A vivacious performance of life being life rejoices this brilliant morning, sun shining, singing her own descant above the wind, as I write this post. "Let go!" howls the wind. "Release what you are holding on to,” the sun lovingly implores. "Listen, listen, listen to your heart," a crescendo demand from a premature March gust, impatient having to wait an extra day to fully arrive. The trees I adore dance with the leaves and snow dust. A bird enters while the wind quiets momentarily, offers an aria, sweet and golden, honey born of his essence.

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Leap Day... what a gift to have a brief time expansion! This brings me to what I need to write about today. I'll be entering blog silence starting tomorrow for a month (maybe two?) Posting images, only while working on other creative pursuits, plus a weeklong silent meditation retreat from March 26th through April 2nd, no photos at all that "tech" free week. I wrote a little about this shift in a post last week. I will still be offering the meditation circles during this time and celebrating my birthday. (How did I get to be almost 47? Wow! This feels miraculous and wonderful:-) 


We all need sacred time to cultivate the gardens growing in our hearts. Writing this blog is one spiritual practice that helps me to do this, abSOULutely. Blogging is soul nourishment for me; it softens and opens my heart daily, teaches me to look, listen, be present to the world within, the world outside these windows (older than me), and the world at large through the offerings of other bloggers. While I’ve kept journals on and off since my early teens, by opening my “journal” to others over the past four years, this blog has become not only a cathartic outpouring of lone person’s journey, but I’ve been told, “it is a place from which inspiration can be drawn,” as well. When I receive messages that tell me this is so, my chest expands. Pride, a little, but mostly, it gives a life often lived in the confines of a bedroom due to chronic illness inspiration in turn, a sense of purpose and courage to continue being an “honest blogger.” 

This is why I will post photos this month, to maintain a quiet connection to all who bless me with visits, who inspire me and bolster my courage. Yet quiet is what I need so I can attend to some other writing projects that are calling to me. Some will be new poetry, also music that continues to emerge and needs to at least have its “bones” recorded so I can remember it for a time when it can be produced more professionally. There are many, many photos that need editing and maybe, just maybe, I will gather some of my photos and writings into a self published book (unless someone reading this is interested in publishing my work, contact me please if you are. I’ve been longing to do this for quite some time, but time is like water; it slips through my fingers. I am listening to the winds, the sun, the bird, my heart, and my "muse" as my friend Olga likes to say, for this is what I am being called to do.

I invite you to visit Shine the Divine: Creativity IS a Spiritual Practice during this quieter time, to view the photos and listen to the meditation podcast offerings on The Healing Womb and Minucha B’Lev, pages of this blog. (These podcasts are free, though donations are certainly welcomed and greatly appreciated:-) I will try to stay focused on my work by not joining memes or visiting others during this time of inner reflection and creative release. This will NOT be easy, as other bloggers know, blogging can be a bit addictive, but in a good way I think, as it is about a desire to connect lovingly with other human beings, how could that be bad? Of course I will check personal emails and respond, as I am able. 

I hope to return refreshed and renewed as spring awakens and look forward to catching up with you on your beautiful blogs at that time.


Gentle steps,
Laura




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A mentsh tracht und Gott lacht- A person plans and God laughs.
~Yiddish proverb

You THINK you have everything planned out. You write it down in words, some kind of magical incantation that ought to conjure it into being real. Well I wrote the post above a few days ago (silly dreamy schemer that I am), having a map of the next month designed with pure intention. And I am going to go ahead with as much of the plan as I can even though a possible rockslide has tumbled down unexpectedly (are they ever expected?) across the imaginary road I've drawn. 


I couldn’t get in to see my neurologist yesterday, she is booked solid until Friday, however I already had an appointment scheduled with my internist for today anyway (completely unrelated) and so, I’m hoping he will take one look at my dramatic head twisting (visualize the movie The Exorcist…not quite 360, but you get the idea) and the MJ myoclonus moonwalk my right leg does all by itself, send me over for an MRI and if need be, (which seems pretty likely) consult with my neuro to get me started on solumedrol. Anyway, I will still enter blog silence, play with my muse when I have the energy and pray, pray, PRAY to be well enough to attend the meditation teacher training retreat at the end of the month. 


It will be what it will be. I will step out of silence to post a little message at the top of the blog to let you know if I am having a true exacerbation or not once I know for sure, or whatever other mysterious "dybbuk" has entered the picture. If you have read this far down the page, thank you for enduring my little whine and attempt to find some humor in this re-turn of symptoms. Surely something good will be brought forth from all of this. I just can't live my life in a battle posture, viewing MS as the enemy, angry as I feel about it somedays. Perhaps this sounds ridiculous to some, but truthfully I feel more peace inside if I allow this disease to be a teacher, a difficult teacher yes, but a teacher none-the-less.  I have learned so much about patience, appreciating life slowed down and the miracle it is that fragile human bodies function as beautifully as they do despite all the things that can and do go wrong; these and many, many other lessons. I am not grateful that I have MS, please understand, yet I am deeply grateful for the blessings that have been revealed because it is part of my lived experience.


Ok, one more thing before I enter silence (she giggles) you will be able to read one more tiny tidbit I've written @ Buddha Chick Life for the March issue, if you scroll down and click on the "Healing and Gratitude" link.


23 comments:

  1. Wishing you many illuminating moments, peace, and continued strength to inspire.

    xoxox

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  2. Returning blessed wishes to you as well.

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  3. Laura,

    You are right to not resist, it does not help. I am wishing you all the best as you deal with this and good meds!
    Enjoy your quiet when you can.
    Love and deep hugs.
    xoxo

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  4. dearest,

    do have lots of fun in simple silence go a wander in the wonder of it all. you will be blessed.

    i am thinking of time off too. been dealing with a few new health issues of my own. but it is difficult, even to think of.

    you remain with me in thought and prayer. ((hugs)) & love too.

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  5. you are special on my mind, and i believe, on God's heart. love & ((hugs))

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  6. Wishing you all the best during this sacred pause, dear Laura. I hope you find the peace and creative outpouring you desire during your time away. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, strength and grace with us despite enduring your many hardships.
    xoxoxo

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  7. I hope this time of silence bring you great peace and refreshing moments for your soul :o) I also hope your doctors find a way to relieve you of your 'moonwalk' ;o)

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  8. I honor your silence and pray that it brings an immensity of healing. So sorry your symptoms have returned with new force. But so glad that you have a resilient spirit that knows enough to learn from all that life sends. I have much to learn from you.

    Love and hugs. I look forward to your pictures.

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  9. Enjoy the time off Laura, and have a happy birthday!

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  10. Well, first, I am so glad you are going to let us know what the doctor's results are!!! "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This is what Jeremiah 29 says. God's plans are always better than ours because he can see ahead and we can't, we are so limited. You have such a wonderful attitude, and I also believe we need to use our bumps in the road as learning tools. I will miss your beautiful poetry and wise insights, but look forward to the pictures. Blessings to you, my friend. And I hope you have a blessed birthday!

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  11. Beautiful post! enjoy your special time!
    Shine on!
    Victoria

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  12. Old Soul, I bow to you.
    Thank you for sharing your wisdom and love.
    You are a gift to me, all of us.
    God has you close to heart. Blessings.

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  13. Peace and enlightenment to you Laura during this contemplative period into which you are about to enter... :)

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  14. I recently closed my blog, so certainly relate to some of what you express here about the need for time out from blogging to rest and regain perspective, and have energy to put to other activities

    so you step out and speak out about your silence, then life throws a curve ball... just to test your resolve perhaps, or not

    may your silent space allow room for your soul to speak to self through these new challenges

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    1. Blessings of well-being to you, dearest Laura. Love you! Rest, take good care. I will love to see your photos. xo

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  15. This beautiful heart is one of the most amazing "random hearts" I've seen, Laura. As I read your words, then went back to the picture, I cried. Not just little leaky wetness, but full blown wipe-up-the-keyboard-before-it-shorts-out tears. It's hard to put into words why this is happening - even with all of my little problems that I whine about, nothing compares to what you're going through. And yet you're not whining - are, in fact, admitting your anger and frustrations, then going on to find the beauty of life instead. I am inspired and humbled. Sniff.

    I'm so glad you're able to take some time for you. May your days of quiet be filled with love and peace, dear Laura! You are in my thoughts and prayers as you fight this battle. You are precious to me (and a lot of other people), and have inspired changes in MY life - that are helping me to try and become a better person. I thank you for that.

    Oh, and HAPPY (coming) BIRTHDAY!

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  16. I hope your quiet time is one of healing for you. Blessings to you, sweet lady.

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  17. Thank you for your recent visit and comment ... sending you healing energy and blessings ~~

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  18. Thank you for your offering today of such inspiration, written with such clarity and grace. Your words and courage reach me on the other side of the world and soften my heart and open my eyes to see the miracle of life and beauty around me. Be encouraged my friend, be still, be silent, be creative, be accepting, be loved. Many thanks and hopes for a time of rest and refreshment.

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