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Monday, June 25, 2012

this is how it is













a flower delicate on its needle thin stem
plucked on her walk home from school
days before summer arrived in full
a gift for me
her mother
i place it on the window sill
appreciative of her kindness
my little girl
my baby
always

yes of course she is
often absorbed in thoughts
her personal universe
worlds away from this one
as it should be at
fifteen
dreaming

oh remember fifteen?
hours and hours
wielding a curling iron
makeup applied with care
outfits funky jewelry
designed by her nimble
fingers and a mind
as sharp as her skin is soft
don't let the blond hair
and forever legs fool you
into believing she's any less
brilliant
than the sun causing her to squint
her blue eyes in the glare

she looks up to see patches of sky
between tall buildings unfamiliar
more accustomed to granite embedded in earth
where stone hearts wait to be found
is she
soon enough she'll be ready to live wherever she
lands


i don't want to count the weeks
who will bring me flowers when my youngest 
moves on too?
i count my breaths instead
pride pleasure joy and grieving
a whirling wind in my chest
heavy and tight
 i smile anyway
because
this is how it is
this is how it is



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The girls and I are traveling as you can tell from the photos; here and there, busy, busy. Not my usual routine. It is good, and uncomfortable all at once. I miss my husband. I miss my dog. I miss our woods and am searching for patches of nature on morning walks on sidewalk amid suburban sprawl. How wondrous it is to be walking on my own. WALKING on sidewalks. Something I could not do a year ago. Could not imagine doing ever again, a year ago. How blessed I am to be with extended family for an extended stay. I am grateful even while missing my beloved (and my dog and our woods:-) 

Living with longing and gratitude blended; this is how it is. Being human, aware of holding the tension of both, trying to find center. Yes, this is how it is.















106 comments:

  1. Yes, these beautiful flower girls - I have two of my own, and the oldest left home this year for college. Not something a mother can ever get used to, all we can be is proud of their strength.

    Lovely words and images you have shared with us, Laura.

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  2. They quickly grow up don't they ~ Your girls are beautiful ~

    Happy day to you ~

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  3. How wonderful--both the pictures and their story, their structures affirming "this is how it is" a rough magic of growth. I do remember 15, and love how you draw me back there both as a girl, as a daughter, and as if a mother.

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  4. Awww... heartwarming and heartfelt read. Chloe is 16 now, two more years of high school and then she'll be off somewhere to college or uni.
    The pictures are lovely, your daughter is beautiful. Wherever we go, there is no place like home, is there. Safe travels.

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  5. I came to see your black and white shots and was surprised to find so many photos! Great verses for your girls.

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  6. Such beautiful photos and sentiments. I have two girls and it was tough when they were of an age to go out into the world. And yes This is How it is.

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  7. Laura, what amazing pictures and what a heartfelt post. What a journey it must be to send off your young into the wild...

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  8. beautifully tender and affectionate.kudos and congrats!

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  9. I love the beauty in your photos and the sincerity in your words! So glad you found such joy in walking! Even though it was not in your woods.....

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  10. This is beautiful....Joy and little pangs.....and so is life....

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  11. Hey, great post. Good photos too, I can tell that you try to find creativity everywhere.

    The poem makes me think of the time at the airport at eighteen...the look on my mums face....

    I lost my twin sister last year.
    http://kolembo.wordpress.com/2011/01/29/morning-come/

    Loss is a funny thing. I know where she is, and you know, everyone has to leave.

    I see what my mum was looking at.

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  12. i am sure where ever she lands she will grow...with what you have given her...great pictures....and love that found heart...

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  13. Okay...a few tears over this one...I can't imagine! My little lass graduates to junior high this year and I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown...LEAVING!? NEVER! A mom can hope, eh? Always such a wonderful visit Laura...awesome to know your traveling and enjoying...and isn't wonderful to have something worth missing...those are the heart pangs that are priceless...The photo's, btw...are fantastic!

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  14. Beautiful photos and sentiments...we have to let them go which is so hard..I know.

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  15. Beautiful.. bittersweet.. but beautiful. Your girl is lovely.. just like her mom. Enjoy your days with them. Of course you will. Hugs to you, Laura.

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  16. What a lovely post--sad, but heartfelt, really tugged at my heartstrings. My oldest is at college, but I still have my two girls at home... For now.

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  17. Beautiful photos and words. You daughter is so pretty.

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  18. ah, your girls are beautiful laura..and so great to hear that you're able to travel..have a wonderful time

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  19. Your girls are adorable. Nice post with lovely sentiments.

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  20. Good luck! Your girls are lovely. I have two daughters too - nothing better! Your feelings are palpable. k.

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  21. Your blog is inspiring. Thank you for visiting my art journaling... I will check out your meditation sessions...

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  22. Kewl write and even better when from the heart

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  23. Grab on to them with love, as you do...your love for them is so apparent!

    I love this.....the pix add to the story, yet it is a heartbreaker, too.

    Hugs!

    Lady Nyo

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  24. PS> beautiful daughters, too!!

    Lady Nyo

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  25. What a beautiful and bittersweet post. Fabulous photos! Ohhh a mother's heart - mine beats for you. I'm so happy to read how you savor your time with them and capturing in pictures and words for us all to enjoy. Namaste!

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  26. So wonderful photos! Have a nice Thursday evening!:)

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  27. Congrats on the special occassion for the family and what a great heart find with the rock, you are very talented to find so many

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  28. Wonderful post about your daughters.

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  29. They do indeed grow up so quickly! A lovely, moving post for the day, Laura! Enjoy your weekend!

    Sylvia

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  30. Great series!! Boom & Gary of the Vermilon River, Canada.

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  31. Your prose hit home with me. Our youngest graduated college in 2010 and has been on her own now for 2 years. Some days the empty nest seems entirely too empty. But...I love your black and white sunflower shot. Very nicely done.

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  32. Such beautiful pictures and words!

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  33. I know the feeling very well! When my daughter moved out, I felt as if a part of my life was missing! It took a long time to adjust! But then, part of the adjustment involved her achievements! That carried me! A beautiful, moving post! And love your skies in monochrome! The cloud patterns are so very beautiful!

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  34. Wonderful photos!
    Have a nice weekend!

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  35. Wonderful black & whites Laura!

    Thanks for visit and comment.

    Nice weekend!

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  36. Beautiful words...
    you have captured the heart
    of all mothers of teen-aged girls.
    I have been there;
    now she is 20, graduated college, and moved away.
    But only in physical location,
    not in my heart or hers.

    The photos in black and white are perfect accompaniments to your text.

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  37. Gorgeous images! Have a great day.

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  38. Great post! So many different photos to see!
    I like your b&w versions!

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  39. Both the flower and your daughter are gorgeous!

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  40. A touching read. How blessed you are in your daughters.

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  41. Great captures! Your daughters are beautiful women. It is great you are all spending time together. happy skywatching!

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  42. Excellent photos in B & W. I like all the flower, the model and the sky, very good.

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  43. Just beautiful! What a lovely flower your daughter is, too! Thanks for sharing with Flower Art Friday.

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  44. Wonderful photos and words.
    Your girls are beautiful.
    Wish you a wonderful weekend.
    Mette

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  45. fantastic shots! and I love the b&w!

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  46. Wonderful post and awesome photography ~ Wow! ~ thanks, ^_^ (A Creative Harbor)

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  47. it's amazing watching them grow, and then they have little girls who you can watch grow too


    done for

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  48. How wonderful Laura - great shots!

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  49. so very beautiful! i too suffer from health problems for twelve years now. i will probably explain someday, but for now, for today I am still willing and able!

    thank you so much for your sweet comment. it meant a lot to me !

    I hope to get to know you better !

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  50. What a wonderful post!
    The text is something to think about ......

    Thanks for sharing

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  51. Great effect in B&W! Nice compositions too.

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  52. So beautiful and so poignant. Your photography captures your words so perfectly. xx

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  53. What a lovely post and beautiful photos. Happy sky watching.

    My Sky.

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  54. Wonderful photos and portraits. Beautiful captured !
    Have a nice weekend, Laura.

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  55. A whirling wind in your chest is such an acurate description. You truly are blessed to have 2 such beautiful girls.

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  56. She is beautiful!! You take care and thinking of you. Happy weekend!


    Kim,USA

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  57. What a wonderful series! I don't which part I like the most, all shots are great.

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  58. Nice photos here and do enjoy your travels.

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  59. thanks for your lovely weekend flowers! wonderful bw-shots :)

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  60. oh, so beautiful! I love the photographs and the perspective they speak; from the flower, found by looking down, to your daughter, looking at her, to looking up at the sky through the sky scrapers... and the rock heart, wonderful too

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  61. Walking on your own! Wonderful!
    I do remember how hard it was, like a piece of me was missing when my sons left home for college. Little by little the hole fills with a new way of being, a new identity, not Mommy anymore but Mom. If we are wise, Mom and Dad go off to a new life, new adventures just as our children do.

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  62. I have purposely not looked at the other comments as I feel sure I will be repeating sentiments here. Such sweet longing and gratitude all wrapped up into one heart-touched post. I loved every photograph and every word and will now "follow" you. Thank you!

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  63. Very nice shots and a very interesting blog. Thank you for the comment at my blog and welcome as follower :-)

    Have a nice day
    Micha

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  64. Beautiful, heart-wrenching words. Your youngest is a real beauty.

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  65. What a beautiful post! I now know how a child graduating tears at your heart. Beautiful photos of your beautiful daughter!

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  66. 'don't let the blond hair
    and forever legs fool you
    into believing she's any less
    brilliant
    than the sun causing her to squint
    her blue eyes in the glare'

    Just beautiful. As Mothers we share our wisdom and who we truly are with our daughters, showing them that they are so much more than appearances.

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  67. Wow! Glorious presentation! :) Really beautiful, a moment captured in time! xoxo

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  68. WOW! This is so inspiring. I can drink from your words and refresh my soul. It has been so hot here, with high index heat warnings, that it seems to zap not only the physical being but the emotional and mental as well; so thank you so much for the wonderful words so well put and the stunning camera shots that accompany them!! Blessings - my youngest are moving and I am helping them and running a ton of errands as well so thank you again for your respite.

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  69. Very lovely post, images and words. Your daughter is so pretty.

    Thanks for dropping by :)

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  70. Beautiful pictures!! I love your blog, very inspiring!

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  71. I am so glad you are able to enjoy this special time with your daughters....what lovely words, perfectly illustrated. The weekly post is a nice way to go during a busy time -- good idea! Enjoy your travels and your beautiful girls!

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  72. She really deserves this beautiful poem you've written. Congratulations on your graduation.

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  73. daughter's are forever gifts. gifts given to daughter's come back to you. watching our daughter's grow up to be our best friends is one of life's best treasures.

    you remain in my thoughts and prayers.

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  74. Gorgeous! I love the way the pictures go with the poetry.
    Thanks for visiting my blog and leaving a kind comment!

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  75. Gorgeous! Visiting late from Sky Watch Friday.

    Please come take a peek at my Sky Shots, have a great weekend!

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  76. Beautiful photos.
    Thank you for the visit.
    Have a great Sunday.

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  77. So beautiful Laura. Your daughter is so precious.

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  78. Heisann!

    So nice words from a mother's tongue to dearest daughters ;:OD)
    So nice layout and illustrations ... love it...

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  79. Amazing series of shots and a thoughtful post.. Thank you for sharing on Weekly Top Shot #37!

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  80. God bless your daughters and you! Your poem is a wonderful tribute to the love of life in the young.

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  81. Very nice pictures and world!
    Wish you a great summer!

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  82. so many blessings in this post. so happy for you :) and congratulations to your beautiful and accomplished graduate!

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  83. A wonderful series of beautiful shots.

    Enjoy your girls, your family, your summer.

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  84. your daughter is beautiful!
    (my sons are 16 + 13)
    LOVE from this mama's heart to yours.

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  85. laura, this is the most beautiful post EVER. To hear you are walking.

    And I LOVE how you captured her looking sky-scraper ward, then showed us the view.

    2 beautiful girls. Well, 3 -- including YOU, of course.

    Happy return home to your wooded spot.

    xoxo to the million billionth!!

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  86. Don't be sad that your daughter is leaving - it's a great opportunity for her to learn and experience new things in life.

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  87. What a beautiful pictures and impressive blog you have! So fantastic!

    a big hello from Spain,
    elena

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  88. It's such a painful time, it truly is. I remember. But change is good. You'll see. :)

    Your daughters are beautiful!

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  89. Lovely shots. I like the flower, but I also really like the shots of the city looking up.

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  90. What a beautiful post! I'm so glad that you're enjoying your time with your family and that you are feeling well :)

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