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Creativity IS a Spiritual Practice

When we see through our hearts, we recognize that every single one of us is infused with creativity. Divine Sparks are embedded in everyone and everything. It's up to us to be courageous, to look and listen deeply, to find the sparks, gather and release them back into the universe, transformed into something new. Join me as we wake up to the sacred-ordinary blessings waiting to greet us each and every day.

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Saturday, June 21, 2014

I Heart Macro 58


i spy a heart tucked
beneath pale blueberry bells
ringing love this life


It has been a few weeks so I'm guessing these blossoms look a lot more like blueberries now and may even taste as sweet as their scent was the morning I photographed them in the bog.

I am still in the midst of MS-tery. More MRI studies are being scheduled to look at my C and T spine, as there were no visible changes in my brain. This does not mean there are no changes, there may or may not be, however there are limitations to what the imaging can pick up. Meanwhile, some of my symptoms may be attributed to plaque on my spine, hence more scans. I am experiencing more spasticity throughout my body than I ever have in the past, including my eyes. My husband was joking that it is like having googley eyes, kind of like Cookie Monster (It doesn't look that way when you see me, but that is how I see you, through wiggling pupils.) And we have to make light of this, because otherwise I focus on my unfocused vision, altered speech, vertigo, the pain in my limbs and back. 

I cried for a few minutes after the doctor's appointment in the car yesterday. I thought about how last year at this time I was taking long daily walks strengthening my body step, by step to climb Mt. Washington in August. How several bumpy months before and after starting on Gilenya have felt like a "Get out of jail free" card, and how much I enjoy going about my life in the daytime, for the most part, as if I don't have a degenerative illness, even though by evening I transition back into a person with pronounced disability. The reality is that I do live with multiple sclerosis, 24/7. Right now as I'm typing the words are jiggling on the screen. It is hard to read what I'm writing. This is really annoying, frustrating, disappointing. YET I can discern color clearly, this is a very big deal. I can hear birds sing outside reminding me to return to the moment when my mind wanders during meditation each morning. When I walk it is with a limp, dragging my right leg, I can't go very far without assistance, but I can ride my stationary bike for a full 45minutes to protect my muscles from atrophy. This also means the asthma is well controlled. Great news!

We'll know more soon about what is happening in my body. My doctors will continue to help me with a treatment plan. In a few weeks I intend to go to the shore with my mother, daughters, sisters, nieces and nephew for kid's week like we do every summer, because I'm living this life, this good life that carries some disappointments, some grief, joyful moments and sweet blueberries that we will place on top of our 4th of July cake as we have done every summer since the kids, now young adults, were little. 



I can't really proof read this because the words are jiggling around on the page. I'm sure it is not my best writing. I do hope it makes sense, that you appreciate these little blueberry blossoms, fresh and full of promise, and most of all that you love the good things in your life as much as I do right along side the inevitable challenges that disappoint and frustrate. There are no "Get out of jail free" cards. Just each day as it presents itself, a constellation of moments, experiences, feelings in constant motion. Freedom arises when we understand this, no cards or golden tickets necessary, all we have to do is show up, be here, right here, right now, no matter what.

Happy Solstice Everyone!
Welcome to Week Fifty-Eight of
I Heart Macro
"Pure awareness transcends thinking... It allows you to look at the world once again with open eyes. And when you do so, a sense of wonder and quiet contentment begins to reappear in your life."~Mark Williams and Danny Pennman, from Mindfulness An Eight-Week Plan For Finding Peace In A Frantic World

It is time for YOU to share the love up-close with YOUR

I Heart Macro offerings!



Shine the Divine

Enjoy slowing down with your camera, paying full attention, observing beauty and curiosities many people pass right by. Your generosity of spirit and keen eyes may open the door to miniscule miracles and mirth others would not have access to otherwise. Feel free to include poetry, prose and thoughts your macro photo or series inspire(s) in you. Writing is completely optional for participation. Straight out of the camera (SOC), edited, color, black and white; anything goes as long as you bring the viewer near to whatever it is that drew your heart's attention and "woke you up" to full presence.

Please link back to my blog either using the button provided or by linking the words "I Heart Macro" back to my blog with this link: shinethedivinecreativityisaspiritualpractice.com. By sharing the link, visitors to your blog will learn about this meme and have a chance to participate as well if they so choose. 

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47 comments:

  1. Sending you lots of distant reiki healing hugs ~ xoxo and your photography is exquisite ~ Happy Solstice and have a wonderful time at the shore ~ thanks, be well ~

    artmusedog and carol (A Creative Harbor)

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  2. I like that you are moving forward, and going to the shore with family as planned, and riding your scooter for 45 minutes to work your muscles. The words jiggling must be very trying. I hope your doctor finds the ideal medicines for you. I admire your attitude and all you manage to do.

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  3. Beautiful little flower,s to consider a joy ... I know a mountain lake, where you can swim and pick blueberries directly from the water.They grow close to the shore.
    It is not possible for me to get there, but I keep this memory.
    Much love and prayers for you

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  4. Laura, I appreciate your post and your honesty. No errors, by the way, even though you couldn't proofread. I wish you as much joy as your heart can hold. What lives we lead!

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  5. I have read and wish all for the best! My thoughts are with you!

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  6. Oh my love, do not lose courage
    I send you all much strength and confidence.
    Greetings from Germany, Petra

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  7. Hi! Beautiful blueberry flowre Photos. Thanks for sharing.

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  8. Your compassion, wisdom, inner beauty and love shine through your words and being Laura.

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  9. Ah, I love seeing the blueberry blossoms. It reminds me of my childhood. We can't grow blueberries where I live because the soli is too alkaline.

    I do hope your doctors get to the root of your current problems soon. Hang in there!

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  10. praying for you that you will have more "normal" days than not. you are an amazing woman. even though you cannot proofread your post, be assured that it is shining with hope and gratitude for the positive attributes in your life. May our Blessed Mother hold you in her arms and bring you peace.

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  11. Praying that you live this good life with the courage and grace that is within you.

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  12. You are loved. Every moment. Prayers for grace, dear one...

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  13. I hope the doctors can do something to ease your symptoms. I wish you a wonderful trip to the shore with your family.

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  14. Joys and sorrows ... laughter and tears. I always admire the beauty and grace with which you approach both. Sending you love, support and good wishes for answers and a measure of improvement. Enjoy your family time and be filled with love.

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  15. Love that last photo of yours with the raindrop - beautiful. I was interested to hear you mention Mt. Washington. My family vacations near their every summer and I have climbed it several times - last July with my 8 month old babe, just to Tuckerman's Ravine hut. It is a beautiful and magical place.

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  16. My friend, I am so sorry for what you are going through - and, as always, so inspired by your constant reminder to see the beauty of all that is right here, right now. This is your gift to the world - thank you for it. The vision problem must be intensely frustrating, and I hope they can do something to remedy that soon. Take very good care of yourself. I am glad you are going to the shore as usual - it will be balm for your soul. I am thinking of you.

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  17. Your blueberry flowers are lovely, so much promise. I am praying for you, Ps. 103:1-3 is a good faith confession.

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  18. A friend of mine was diagnosed with MS almost 20 years ago. She is a piano teacher. The doctors have told her that the requirements for playing and teaching the piano have been a contributing factor to her much slower decline. Your courage and inspiring posts are a blessing.

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  19. Laura, I'm so happy to know someone so grateful for this life. Nope, we can't get out of jail free, but we can enjoy the freedoms we have. You're writing is great. Better than mine, and my eyes don't jiggle. Of course, you know I wish you the very best.

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  20. I'm so sorry you are not feeling better by now. So hoping the doctors can help you. I surely hope you enjoy your vacation.

    Love your photographs.

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  21. Very beautiful blossom pictures ! I admire you how you cope with this terrible disease !

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  22. Such a great flower! Stunning shots ...
    Thanks for you challenge, Laura!

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  23. Dear Laura,
    I am so sorry to read, that your disease is quite active at the moment and sincerely wish, that your health will improve soon. It is hard, not to know when that may be. Nevertheless I enjoyed your pictures, especially as I have found the first wild blueberries in the Bavarian forrest last week. Our holidays did not go the way we planned it either, but this is life...
    Sincerely yours Sarah

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  24. Dear Laura,

    I'm happy to participating once again, but dismayed to hear that your MS is giving you so much trouble. Especially with the eyes! And as usual you are an inspiration with how you are handling it and are teaching through it... Lots of love! Silke

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  25. What delicate and lovely shots.

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  26. The blueberry bells are so beautiful and fresh! Hope very much that the MS don't increase, but stops to evolve!!!
    Wish you some nice midsummer days :-)

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  27. Your great attitude shines through your writing and photography. Enjoy those sweet berries and look forward to that trip to the shore.

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  28. Dear Laura
    You are in my prayers. Thank you for keeping up your beautiful blog. I realize it can't be easy.

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  29. Laura I have been praying and sending healing thoughts. I was so excited to see the blueberry blossoms but your words were just as real, raw and beautiful. We don't know what your life is like living every day with a chronic health issue....just know we are here holding you in arm arms and sending our love.

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  30. I have never seen a blueberry blossom before! It is so precious!
    I will keep you in my prayers for better health, Laura. I know that living with MS is a lifelong challenge, but hopefully you will go into a long remission soon and regain your strength. Keep that sense of humor --it really does help!

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  31. Greetings Laura! MAy you have an excellent holiday at the shore with the lovely family. And as I understand "doctors will continue to help you with a treatment plan", please have confidence and trust, believe in positivity, always! toate cele bune, all the best, for you and family, too! Have a sunny summer! Alexa T

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  32. Laura, I will keep you in my prayers. Hopefully they find some medicine that will help you more.. The blueberry blossoms are beautiful. I hope you enjoy your time at the beach, you certainly deserve a good time. Have a happy week!

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  33. Those blueberry blossoms are indeed absolutely gorgeous, Laura. Thank you for sharing them and opening your heart to us all. You are to be congratulated for your strong spirit and positive attitude. Praying that the good times outnumber the others!

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  34. Those blueberry bells are pregnant with the bounty to come and the beauty they hold in their souls.

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  35. I had so hoped that things would have improved. Is it more cruel to have periods where you have time where you kind of pretend that you are kind of normal and then realty sets in? Would being at one level be easier to take? I don't know, but you are right. At night reality sets in.... I hope for you to be able to hike again.. Hugs

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  36. Love that shot with the dewdrop. Sending healing thoughts to you....xx

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  37. I am sorry that this hideous disease is making your life so physically difficult, Lovely One. I know that your attitude if thankfulness and focusing on what is beautiful, big and small, will help you make the most of each day, in spite of the many trials you face. Sending prayers of light love and laughter. I am happy to know a trip to the shore awaits you!
    Happy Summer!

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  38. You're so amazing. I feel so inspired when I read your posts. Life's challenges in my life are nothing to what you struggle with. My prayers are for you to meet each day with the same positive outlook that you do now and when frustration slips in, then re-read, if you can through jiggly vision, these words and feel renewed by your own words. May God's blessings pour down on you & make you a new! Thanks for hosting i heart macro!

    http://curiousasacathy.com/2014/06/ww-moses-cone-manor/

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  39. I had no idea that blueberries were preceded by blossoms as I had never seen their flowers, so thank you for sharing these wonderful images and your heartfelt words about your current situation. I admire your tenacity and willingness to see the positive in life and wish you all the very best.

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  40. I didn't know, Laura. If you have written of this before, I totally missed it. Bless you for your faith and strength of heart.

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  41. Of all your photos... the blueberry flower bell heart with dew drops is my favorite. And you... you have no idea what a light you are for me. I was telling someone about you the other day and just in saying your name and what you share here, how it opens my heart and makes me grateful for each word and image we share... and for you and your sweet spirit and your spiritual practice, it is such a beautiful song, every note of you.

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  42. dear laura,
    yes, the birds singing just outside the window are golden threads mending our hearts. this moment. then. the next. no one has any more or any less. thank you for brightening this moment. may we all walk with compassion and grace into the next.

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  43. Beautiful! Especially the ones with dew drops! Happy weekend!

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  44. I too live with a progressive neuromuscular condition (but it is not MS) so i share with you the ups and downs of living in a body that just doesn't behave the way it once did. Life and love and beauty have become such a focus in my life. Thank you for sharing the photos of the beauty you find in your life.

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